Imagine being on a leash.. wanting something so bad.. and you almost have it….. but the leash is just a few inches too short. Think of yourself as being terrified of everyone, everything, every.single.word… You want to say “Hi.” So much.. but your mind won’t let you… instead it tells you the person you’re trying to talk to will hate you… or they dont want you around… or you’re annoying.. Nothing ever works out for you. You sit and have panic attack, after panic attack which soon sends you into depression… you feel stupid. You feel worthless. It makes you feel like an out-cast. You can’t tell people whats wrong.. or whats happening just because they wont believe you.. or thats what you think…………. its so hard to explain.. no one will ever understand it untill they have experienced it themselve’s. ..another way it feels.. Being nervous constantly. You accidently blush… picking at your own skin helps relieve it sometimes…. But it will never stop.. It will constantly eat at me for the rest of my life.